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|Posted on April 20, 2014 at 12:35 PM||comments (0)|
You know how you want to give up something, but don't know how because you did not introduce yourself to it -- it came to you by way of someone that was doing it themselves. Well, that is where I am currently in my life. It's time to put the past away -- by way of what others have brought to my life. This is the first opportunity that I've had to sit and just write about what's going on with me this year. What better way than sharing it on Easter Sunday via the worldwide web?!?
Stuff just happens and writers don't have a schedule --they just do it like Nike. I guess all of what is also going on with me is that I will be graduating in three weeks and my life will begin. Are you ever really ready for it all -when it happens? Do you always have what you want when the celebration begins? This time around I have no expectations for others, but only for myself. I want to be better.
It takes a lot to wake up and say, I no longer want to eat like others. I no longer want to hang out with the same people. It's time to change my zip code and state. It's time to rearrange my life and throw away a lot of shyt. It's that time. I feel it and want it so bad. I thnk we play a lot of games with ouselves, especially when you are only responsible for you in life and have no family (as in your own children and family). This is not to be negative and I hope that it isn't coming across as such -- but life is very different as I used to know it.
I think that is fair. I think it is fair to assess where you are and where you want to go. It's really fair to be fair to yourself and realize that it is okay to be different -- it is okay to let go of what they brought to you -- though you have nothing to replace it with. I think that this fair to me. This has been one of the most challenging years for me, because I've had to grow up a little more internally and all the while learn what it takes to be in the profession that I'm in.
I'm ready for a break. I can say it with conviction and know that it is time to just live. I don't think I ever really had the opportunity to do so-- I've been searching for a long time. So now, I'm there in that place of transition. I just want to use the wisdom that I have this go around and make it all work -- come together for the greater good.
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|Posted on January 2, 2014 at 3:00 AM||comments (0)|
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|Posted on January 2, 2014 at 2:20 AM||comments (0)|
Well I made it - I decided to do this ish differently this time around with regard to my own holiday season. I let go of a lot of things that no longer mattered to me as it pertains to being healthy mentally. One thing that I learned in 2013, I'm important and how I feel matters and my body will show itself approval at any given time. I got the work done with school with flying colors, but what I did not do was stay on my regimen with a lot of things that make me feel good. ...Not going to make any excuses, I just want to show that I'm human via this virtual notepad. I get it though. You have to treat you better than your mother would or father. You have to know that in this life you are important and that you need to listen to your body, mind, and soul at all times.
No one in this life is going to love you like you can. I don't care if you are in a relationship or have been married for 50 + years! You have to love you better than your own spouse and that is what I call unconditional love of self -with- GOD all up in the mix. This is one thing that I know to be true and I'm at the point where I have to love myself. I have to face me more every day because it is apart of his plan for my life. There is never the right time to change, you just change. Seems simple. I want it to be simple. I was reading something earlier yesterday about changing the negative thougths that come into your mind into postiive ones. Things just have to be rephrased or not phrased at all. I want peace and love and happiness. I want to be able to deal with life and be always one step ahead of the game.
There is a for sure path of doing this -- Honoring Self. Honoring the process that I am in. I don't think that I need to fight this one (when I look in the mirror). I want to love her like never before, because see I've been hurt a lot by people. And, I don't want to feel that hurt like that anymore nor do I long for there love. GOD's love is what is important to me right now and how to fully tap into that is what I'm working on. I know he is here with me in this journey that I'm going on in my writing and internally with my soul. I want to be the best that I can be, not a perfectionist any longer (it takes to much out of me to be a perfectionist). I've been hard on myself a lot in many areas of my life in my thirties, but I've also accomplished a lot. However, I want to go easier on myself and learn to really love me without the rhetoric that I throw at myself. It's easier said than done.
I do love myself, don't get me wrong. But, sometimes you slip on things, and forget and this time I don't want to forget - when I did for a moment I ended up having to pack up and leave Dallas, Texas and moved to Houston, Texas to get away from a relationship. I will not be co-dependent in any relationship with anybody. I am me and need no validation. If you love me you will accept me for who I am not for what you want me to be. I get it. I really do today and this goes for friends and family too. I don't have to be around you to love you. This is real if you are reading this. This is raw if you are feeling this. This is truth. I always want to be honest with myself. Yes, I want to live in his image at all times. It takes practice each day that I'm blessed to wake up. I'm ready for all of this and then some - POSITIVE. I believe and know that I'm a work in progress for life and I take none of that for granted. I will achieve and will continiue to be of service to my commuinty and help others. I am a vessel of love and a communicator of words.
Stay-tuned for what's in store with this blog and my literary empire! I am blessed and highly favored. I will achieve greatness in 2014 and beyond. I am beautifully flawed and with that being said know that > Life is good.
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